ya Allaah i wish to die..
yaa Allah…
i wish to die..
when i sit around and observe this world..
i am in agony…
longing to be somewhere else..
as if my heart is not here..
my body my mind..
is just living for the sake of living..
am just eating for the sake of eating
in this weird dreamworld
nothing is real
its all an illusion…
i yearn for something more..
something i know i can never reach here
something real
lasting
yaa Allaah
i ache to be truly home
i eat yummy food on this earth
but how more yummy it would be in jennah…
when am cuddled up under my warm blankee
on a chilly day.. the pleasure of sleep overtaking me
i long yaa Allaah oh how i longgg to sleep deeply in the warmth of jennaahh!
yaa Allaah i wish to die…
yaa Allaah..
when i make sujood i know am the closest to you…
i beg for you to take my life
take me from this dreamworld..
i have no desire to be here
take meee
takeee meeeeee…….
ya Allaah..
there is only one thing i fear..
i fear ur wrath..
and i fear ur promises of torturous payment for sin…
i am afriad of death not cos of what ill leave behind..
but for the fear of the pain stabbings of a thousand wounds
i fear the pain of my soul pulled from my body…
i fear the fire..
ya Allaah
ive read of the barzakh.. of the coiling snakes that brought human ribs together
of the bites of red ants.. and cockroaches crawling on me :S
the the sting of crazy scorpions
of lonliness
in the narrow six feet under
within the dark dark dark six ft under
i shake with fear ya Allaah i shakkke with fear…
yaa Allaah my sins are many…
i have uphold ur greatness
but i have lied
procrastinated
i havent done much da3wah..
sometimes i let munkar fly by
i have sins and i know ur promise is unbreakable..
and that.. i fear greatly…
yaa Allaaah
am not afraid to die
am not afraid to leave whatever pleasure of this world
but i AM afraid of my sins…
for the torture it would bring me..
the pain of my sould being pulled from my body..
the torture of the barzakh
the scorching fires of hell
so here it is yaa Allaah my du3a to you
besmillaahir-ra7maanir-ra7eeem
ya Allaah.. the lord of the universe, the heavens, hell, earth and the hereafter..
take my soul now
take it right now
if i am to reside in jennah
if i have completed my purpose here..
if my path is only to dwindle laterr
if you can accept me right now
if am already in the highest of emaan
if i can be in jennah
but ya Allaah
if i have too many sins on record..
even if i am to dip in hellfire only for a bit
dont let that fire even lick me for a second..
help me go thru this life
guide me always
give me strength
give me energy
to perservere in this dreamland
to purify me from my sins
to protect me from hellfire
keep me on the straight path
show me the right way
the way of the ppl who u cherish and love
not those who are lost..
neither those who are deviated..
for this heart of mine..
would rather be with you..
in the ultimate real world
of the hereafter..of jennah..
and this life here on earth…
…..is always a….(*looks in thesaurus*) dolor
edit: ya rabbi do whats best for me…yaa 7ayyu yaa qayoomu bera7mataka astagheeyth asli7li sha2nee kullahu wa takelnee ilaa nafsee tarfata 3aynn
Salafiya wrote,
Assalam Alaikum Wa Rahmatullah
uhhh, here were my emotions as I read the poem:
“er, why does she wish to die? =(
Oh I get it, then I want to die too.
LOL NAJAT JUST RUINED IT WITH YUMMY AND BLANKEE. She needs a peer reviewer (ie me!) *laughing because of blankee*
*spills a few tears because of Najat’s fears of Youm al Qiyamah* Exactly my fears!! Everybody’s fears probably.
subhanAllaah…
AMEEN AMEEN AMEEN. Alhumdulillah, Allaahuma salli ‘ala Muhammad.
LOL @ LOOKS AT THESAURUS. at least leave us in a serious mood sheesh.”
-The End. So that’s basically my thoughts =P
I liked reading this masha’Allaah..
habibiti qalbee
Link | March 13th, 2008 at 2:56 am
Muzna wrote,
Ahh… Firdaws al a3laa insha’Allaah.
I hope you die too lol if this is the highest eman point in your life… and enjoy the warm blankees of Jannah. And cheese fries, better than we used to have in highschool at Kerr.
Love you,
Your Muzzie FobFace
Link | March 13th, 2008 at 7:25 pm
feesabeelillaah wrote,
subhaan Allaah talk about emotional stuff! i haven’t read this kind of stuff in awhile….beautiful and may Allaah accept your hopes and dreams and may Allaah protect you from the harsh fire of hell and may Allaah grant you happiness in this world and next!
and we all shall die but may Allaah be pleased with us upon our death…..aameen yaa Rabbil aalameen!
Link | March 14th, 2008 at 12:25 am
nabilah wrote,
=) answer to your comment on my blog : I don’t mind…=)Thanx so much for the compliment. I’m flattered =) And I’m happy, masyaAllah, that we can all spread some maa’ruf around.=) Fisabilillah sister…..=)
Link | March 14th, 2008 at 4:59 pm
najat wrote,
awwww al7amdulillaah =)
Link | March 16th, 2008 at 2:48 pm
DarthVador wrote,
So Die Already! Whut RU waiting for, lets do a double Ajr die day or something party.
Call me!
Sha Killa
Link | March 19th, 2008 at 4:30 am
najat wrote,
sha killah LOL why did you murder that poor banana man? miskeen he was hanged
Link | March 19th, 2008 at 4:50 pm
:) wrote,
and where is the bit ‘ if it is good for me’ !
Link | March 25th, 2008 at 8:30 pm
A wrote,
As Salaamu ‘Alaykum wa Rahmatullaah wa Barakaatuh
Yeah bro, Allaah Knows Best, how can this be good so soon when others would be missing more benefit from this nice blog?
Link | March 27th, 2008 at 5:03 am
najat wrote,
wa 3laykum asSalaam wa ra7matuAllaahi wa barakaatuh,
im a sis =/ thanks
Link | March 28th, 2008 at 1:59 am
sieda wrote,
LOL
Link | March 31st, 2008 at 4:39 pm
natalie wrote,
hello… well i know that you probably wont believe me but i’d just like to tell you that there is someone that died for your sins and you can be forgiven if you just ask… there is no need to be afraid that when you die your sins will haunt you… God sent his only son long ago to die for our sins so we must not suffer.. And im sure you know who God is..even if you dont believe in Him, He does exist.. and He would love to forgive you and He loves you, has loved you since day one, but you must accept Him. Just thought i’d send you a little encouragement because it seem your in misery, and you shouldnt be.. He is a just God but He is also full of grace.. Be blessed.. i hope you find the truth
just a caring stranger,
natalie
Link | March 31st, 2008 at 10:46 pm
najat wrote,
hello natalie,
yeh i know who Allaah (God) is thanks, if you didn’t notice i am a muslim and i ask Allaah for forgivness and repent to Him only, not His messenger Jesus (peace be upon him), Allaah has no partners He is ONE alone, and Muhammad (may Allaah’s blessings and peace be upon him) is His slave and messenger
Jesus did not die for our sins… and he is not Allaah’s son
“Say! He is God, the One!
The Eternally Besought of all!
He does not beget, nor is He begotten.
And there is nothing comparable to Him.”
ive found the truth thank you, i hope you find the truth which is Islaam =)
Link | April 1st, 2008 at 12:11 am
Feesabeelillaah wrote,
Hello Natalie,
I hope you are well and I hope for you to be guided to the truth (Islaam). Allaah says in the holy Quraan “This day I have perfected your religion for you, completed My favor towards you, and have chosen for you Islaam as your religion.†He (Almighty) who is capable of creating a man from nothing (Adam)…a female from male (Eve) is certainly without a doubt able to create a male from female (Jesus) as well that is just his power and will! Not for us to claim that He (Almighty) has begotten a son, NAY, He did not! nor is Jesus Allaah……Allaah is one!
There is none worthy of worship except Allaah and Muhammad (peace be upon him) is indeed His slave and final messenger; the seal of all prophets!
ciao(:
Link | April 2nd, 2008 at 11:27 pm
Aadhil wrote,
This post reminds me of the hadith:
Narrated Anas bin Malik:
The Prophet said, “None of you should wish for death because of a calamity befalling him; but if he has to wish for death, he should say: “O Allah! Keep me alive as long as life is better for me, and let me die if death is better for me.’ “
Link | May 27th, 2008 at 11:22 am